Arms of the angel

So if you haven't heard by now...the holiday season was not kind to me. To start off with the less depressing news: I was supposed to go to Japan to see my boyfriend, however, my MRSA relapsed, so I couldn't go. The same night my grandmother was sent back to the ER. Because it still hurts to talk about the short version is she was sent to hospice and died on Friday December 30, 2011. It was hardest goodbye I've ever had to do. She was an amazing woman and the most spirited person I know. I hope to become more like her as time passes.

As a message to anyone who's lost a loved one or may be losing one...don't feel like you're alone. There is always at least one person who will listen to you. You will feel sad, you will feel angry and frustrated. There is no stopping the things you feel. I dealt with all of this by writing a poem and putting together the poems for the viewing and funeral. The praise is the best motivation to keep staying strong.
Below is my poem in honor of my grandmother (mom-mom):

I'll never forget your love,
That radiant fire glow.
It lives on within our hearts,
Forever engraved in our souls.
The embers of your love,
Burn bright in us all.
Never waning slightly
Or growing small.

The world you filled has lost its luster,
But it never fades away.
Our hearts shall grow stronger
Each and every day.
Loving unconditionally, was one of your greatest virtues.
Making life filled in wondrous hues.

Death, that necessary evil, stole you from our lives.
But granted us a peaceful image,
that will survive.
You have somewhere else to light.
Another place to be.
None will stop loving you,
Especially me. 

I know you'll always be watching.
Caring, loving strong.
I'll feel you in my heart.
I'll hear you in every song.

So enjoy where ever you are.
Peaceful and serene.
I'll see you soon again one day.
In a beautiful, bright scene.

Mischief Managed